Living with Pain

Well I did it, I finally broke down and bought the first plant. I sold off all my plants, house plants and the pots outside, just before moving out of the house a year ago. It's been different living without them. Funny thing is, when my energy was good my plants thrived, when my energy went negative, my plants would get sad looking. 

I have avoided getting plants while in this temporary situation, not knowing when or where I would be relocated to. I couldn't help it the other day, as I walked into the store, I noticed this little guy outside looking a bit shanty and the price was reduced to $7.99 on him.

 I had to bring him home.

I have the pot my grandkids decorated for me for Mother's Day a few years ago, and the kitty stand that has always been sitting on the front porch {even when it's empty}, the only one I couldn't part with. So now it has a plant, you can't see the kitty but he's there. I cut off the dead heads and added fresh plant soil and plenty of water and the plants looking pretty good again. It's my hope to go HOME soon. Looking forward to the day when I have a house full of green plants and bright colored flowers. 

I couldn't take the pain anymore in my left foot and finally went to the doctor. She became concerned about the lumps on the bottoms of both feet and will be monitoring them more closely, and I'm being sent to the hospital for X rays on the left ankle as it's not looking good {or feeling good} I was given another brace, and a prescription for pain pills as it has become an unbearable pain to walk on. The brace is impossible to put on as I can't point my foot outward to slip it over the heel, so I will be looking for a boot that attaches differently.

Getting up and down have become harder, with not having any support on one foot, needing a wall or some sturdy object to pull myself up with. The lower back pain has become a part of my mornings and nights. Becoming really hard to lay down and be comfortable in any position. Getting up from a laying down is almost as painful as laying there. My weight is going nuts, and I really need to shed a few pounds. I have never been this heavy and have no intentions of getting any heavier. 

I think the weight might have a bit of something to do with the reoccurring heartburn, which my doctor is suspicious may not be heartburn at all. My diet has become so limited as to not trigger it into acting up. I miss so many of the foods I used to enjoy and love the taste of. Again, today I'm in pain of the abdomen and feel bloated. Hoping a warm cup of coffee will help. I get headaches when I don't drink a couple cups before bed, so I woke up with a migraine today, as well.

Living with pain is no easy task. Keeping your pain to yourself and not letting it show or become the concern of others is a chore all its own. Limping with a smile. Not asking for help. Not being able to do the things you need to do. It's work of its own kind. 

People can look at you and see nothing, to think that there is nothing wrong. "Why does she have a disability plaque in her car?" "How is he on disability, he looks fine to me". We judge and assume that there is nothing wrong with someone, when in truth, they are in more pain than you could ever tolerate. 

Be mindful and keep the dirty looks to yourself next time you see someone in the disabled parking spot. Yes, they may not look that old, they may not look that crippled. You don't know how painful it is for them to get in and out of the vehicle and walk the distance to the store. Or how much more painful it is to have the weight of a bag of groceries on their arm while they try to keep their balance. 

It's not easy to live with pain, that people can't see. 

Blessed by God

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Taste it before you dish it out.

So many people like to dish it out, then they worry about you dishing it back. They think that you think like they do. It confuses them when you don't. 

It's said the one that accuses is guilty of the crime. Most of the time, that's a pretty accurate statement. People that think down and dirty, think everyone else is as down and dirty as they are. 

Most of the time and for most folks - they are above it. I taught my kids to take the high road, rise above the situation and not stoop to be as low as the one throwing the dirt. 

Sometimes you meet someone that is constantly dishing out the crap. Most times you can walk away and ignore them. That often makes them dish it out even more. They are so determined to get under your skin. Jealousy and Envy is usually the driving force in them. Other times, you are stuck with the person in your life, something you can't just walk away from. 

On the rare occasion - you have to give them a taste of their own medicine, hoping they can finally figure it out. Be prepared, more often than not, they can't get the understanding. They continue to dish out the crap. 

It's rewarding when the one time, you feed it back to them and you can tell they didn't like the taste of shit in their mouth. Whether or not, it stops the problem, is another question. But it does feel good to finally stand up for yourself and put a stop to being fed the crap. 

How people respond to the returned treatment is interesting. A few will figure it out and apologize. A few others will end the relationship and walk away, sparing you the foul treatment for good. And yet another few, will accuse you of mistreating them, blame you and try to make you look bad. When in fact it's been their own actions all along that were crap. 

Remember to 'taste it, before you dish it out'. If you don't like the taste of it, chances are - no one else will either. And beware, there are some folks that just might feed it back to you. 

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