Well I did it, I finally broke down and bought the first plant. I sold off all my plants, house plants and the pots outside, just before moving out of the house a year ago. It's been different living without them. Funny thing is, when my energy was good my plants thrived, when my energy went negative, my plants would get sad looking. I have avoided getting plants while in this temporary situation, not knowing when or where I would be relocated to. I couldn't help it the other day, as I walked into the store, I noticed this little guy outside looking a bit shanty and the price was reduced to $7.99 on him.
I had to bring him home.
I have the pot my grandkids decorated for me for Mother's Day a few years ago, and the kitty stand that has always been sitting on the front porch {even when it's empty}, the only one I couldn't part with. So now it has a plant, you can't see the kitty but he's there. I cut off the dead heads and added fresh plant soil and plenty of water and the plants looking pretty good again. It's my hope to go HOME soon. Looking forward to the day when I have a house full of green plants and bright colored flowers.
I couldn't take the pain anymore in my left foot and finally went to the doctor. She became concerned about the lumps on the bottoms of both feet and will be monitoring them more closely, and I'm being sent to the hospital for X rays on the left ankle as it's not looking good {or feeling good} I was given another brace, and a prescription for pain pills as it has become an unbearable pain to walk on. The brace is impossible to put on as I can't point my foot outward to slip it over the heel, so I will be looking for a boot that attaches differently.
Getting up and down have become harder, with not having any support on one foot, needing a wall or some sturdy object to pull myself up with. The lower back pain has become a part of my mornings and nights. Becoming really hard to lay down and be comfortable in any position. Getting up from a laying down is almost as painful as laying there. My weight is going nuts, and I really need to shed a few pounds. I have never been this heavy and have no intentions of getting any heavier.
I think the weight might have a bit of something to do with the reoccurring heartburn, which my doctor is suspicious may not be heartburn at all. My diet has become so limited as to not trigger it into acting up. I miss so many of the foods I used to enjoy and love the taste of. Again, today I'm in pain of the abdomen and feel bloated. Hoping a warm cup of coffee will help. I get headaches when I don't drink a couple cups before bed, so I woke up with a migraine today, as well.
Living with pain is no easy task. Keeping your pain to yourself and not letting it show or become the concern of others is a chore all its own. Limping with a smile. Not asking for help. Not being able to do the things you need to do. It's work of its own kind.
People can look at you and see nothing, to think that there is nothing wrong. "Why does she have a disability plaque in her car?" "How is he on disability, he looks fine to me". We judge and assume that there is nothing wrong with someone, when in truth, they are in more pain than you could ever tolerate.
Be mindful and keep the dirty looks to yourself next time you see someone in the disabled parking spot. Yes, they may not look that old, they may not look that crippled. You don't know how painful it is for them to get in and out of the vehicle and walk the distance to the store. Or how much more painful it is to have the weight of a bag of groceries on their arm while they try to keep their balance.
It's not easy to live with pain, that people can't see.
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