As I sit here watching the rain, I can't help but think about this time last year. When I was living in the truck traveling around the state, exploring.
The weather was perfect, warm all through the night. Days were a little hot. The truck was running prime and being reliable that I could go anywhere without worry.
I was able to explore and see many beautiful places. Money was sufficient for the journeys. People were friendly, not a care to overcome.
Then winter hit and it still wasn't too cold. The truck started using more gas and money got a bit thinner. Some of the cats started getting sick and I had to make some hard decisions, but it still wasn't horribly cold. Being out in the weather wasn't too bad. Losing Gizmo was hard.
Then we got the call for low-income housing and was turned down because neither of us had a current residence with rental history. That started the collapse and downward spiral. Money was tight, with so many vet bills and the truck needing parts. Having to call for help because of break downs and borrowing. His mental illness overtaking him, physical ailments and constant doctor appointments.
I was losing all hope and my spirits fading fast. My birthday was depressing, because of the situation and Christmas was heartbreaking. I reached the end of the line mentally, spiritually and physically. I reached out to the Lord and let Him know I couldn't do it anymore.
Tim attempted suicide after complaining to no end for a couple months. So, I put him in the hospital, Then the freezing temperatures came in January. I was having to start the truck in the middle of the night, to prevent it from getting too cold, and couldn't keep it running for long as to not waste gas. Never did get warmed up.
Ice on the windows and all alone with the animals, I couldn't take any more. Didn't know if I was even going to wake up from being frozen. Then a couple friends stepped up to help. I was given an opportunity to be in a house, but needed to wait until the following week, so a friend took me in over the weekend and I moved the following Tuesday. I was able to move my horse to a better place that I could more afford as well.
This year it's been cold and wet most of the time, nights dropping temps to near freezing. It's been 5 months with a roof over my head and heat to warm my body. Blessings and miracles abound. As I watched the snow fall in February, I thanked the Lord daily for saving me from it all. And since then, it's been cold wet and miserable outside. Very few nice days in spring and now it's summer with still a lot of rain and cold.
I wouldn't have survived this year in the truck; I never would have made it in the cold. I feel very blessed and grateful to everyone, and all the Lord has done for me. God is amazing. I know I never would have survived if I had been left in the truck once the snow fell. God's timing was perfect.
I'm sitting here watching it rain, thinking about where I was a year ago and where I am now. I've gotten my business license back, my notary commission back and I've been able to work a bit, enough to not have to borrow. I was blessed with a car being gifted to me and I was able to get rid of the truck before it left me stranded. Starting to get caught up on bills and getting closer to moving home.
The original plan of 'the apartment' has been sidelined. The city wouldn't give them a permit to remodel an existing building in the mobile home community. Guess you can't have 'houses' and 'mobile homes' in the same park? Weird I thought. A plan B was created and I'm now waiting on a remodel of an older mobile home to move too. Hopefully I get to unpack and be permanent when I get there.
I gave up on trying to make a plan and force everything in the direction I thought it should go and I've let go, letting God move mountains and fulfill His plan for me. As I told a friend recently - I know the move is 'far away' but I'm ready to go where God wants me to go. He's opened so many doors and flooded me with so many blessings this year, I can't help but look forward to see where He wants to take me.
Blessed by God
Life's a journey @ the Bright Side of the Barn
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Until next time, Stay Safe and Happy Trails.
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