God is Amazing

As I sit here watching the rain, I can't help but think about this time last year. When I was living in the truck traveling around the state, exploring.

The weather was perfect, warm all through the night. Days were a little hot. The truck was running prime and being reliable that I could go anywhere without worry. 

I was able to explore and see many beautiful places. Money was sufficient for the journeys. People were friendly, not a care to overcome.

Then winter hit and it still wasn't too cold. The truck started using more gas and money got a bit thinner. Some of the cats started getting sick and I had to make some hard decisions, but it still wasn't horribly cold. Being out in the weather wasn't too bad. Losing Gizmo was hard.

Then we got the call for low-income housing and was turned down because neither of us had a current residence with rental history. That started the collapse and downward spiral. Money was tight, with so many vet bills and the truck needing parts. Having to call for help because of break downs and borrowing. His mental illness overtaking him, physical ailments and constant doctor appointments.

I was losing all hope and my spirits fading fast. My birthday was depressing, because of the situation and Christmas was heartbreaking. I reached the end of the line mentally, spiritually and physically. I reached out to the Lord and let Him know I couldn't do it anymore. 

Tim attempted suicide after complaining to no end for a couple months. So, I put him in the hospital, Then the freezing temperatures came in January. I was having to start the truck in the middle of the night, to prevent it from getting too cold, and couldn't keep it running for long as to not waste gas. Never did get warmed up.

Ice on the windows and all alone with the animals, I couldn't take any more. Didn't know if I was even going to wake up from being frozen. Then a couple friends stepped up to help. I was given an opportunity to be in a house, but needed to wait until the following week, so a friend took me in over the weekend and I moved the following Tuesday. I was able to move my horse to a better place that I could more afford as well. 

This year it's been cold and wet most of the time, nights dropping temps to near freezing. It's been 5 months with a roof over my head and heat to warm my body. Blessings and miracles abound. As I watched the snow fall in February, I thanked the Lord daily for saving me from it all. And since then, it's been cold wet and miserable outside. Very few nice days in spring and now it's summer with still a lot of rain and cold. 

I wouldn't have survived this year in the truck; I never would have made it in the cold. I feel very blessed and grateful to everyone, and all the Lord has done for me. God is amazing. I know I never would have survived if I had been left in the truck once the snow fell. God's timing was perfect.

I'm sitting here watching it rain, thinking about where I was a year ago and where I am now. I've gotten my business license back, my notary commission back and I've been able to work a bit, enough to not have to borrow. I was blessed with a car being gifted to me and I was able to get rid of the truck before it left me stranded. Starting to get caught up on bills and getting closer to moving home. 

The original plan of 'the apartment' has been sidelined. The city wouldn't give them a permit to remodel an existing building in the mobile home community. Guess you can't have 'houses' and 'mobile homes' in the same park? Weird I thought. A plan B was created and I'm now waiting on a remodel of an older mobile home to move too. Hopefully I get to unpack and be permanent when I get there. 

I gave up on trying to make a plan and force everything in the direction I thought it should go and I've let go, letting God move mountains and fulfill His plan for me. As I told a friend recently - I know the move is 'far away' but I'm ready to go where God wants me to go. He's opened so many doors and flooded me with so many blessings this year, I can't help but look forward to see where He wants to take me. 

Blessed by God

Life's a journey @ the Bright Side of the Barn

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Until next time, Stay Safe and Happy Trails.

Social Security is a Scam.

A few chilling facts about Social Security that you might not know.

All that money you have paid in all your life, you might never see, and your benefactor may never receive. 

Scenario #1

A person can work a low paying job for years, get sick and not be able to work for a few years ~ and SURPRIZE you no longer have enough points to qualify for SSDI {Your disability benefits}, so then you will have to fight to receive SSI. Social security Insurance for the under privileged. It may take a few years to receive, so hang in there. Homelessness may lead to drug addiction, and you could end up dead before a decision is made. For many, they survive barely on the streets getting pushed around and kicked around. Until finally - they start getting the 'benefits'. Which is an amount that does not qualify you for any kind of rent, even in a slum. So, you sign up for low-income housing. Be prepared to live on the streets for another 3-5-7 years as the waiting lists are ridiculously long. But hey, the upside is your getting a few bucks on the first of every month and now your prescriptions are free. 

Scenario #2

Both you and your mate work for the majority of your lives, finally he's old enough to retire and collect his social security. Yay! Not even a year later he passes away. Now where is all his money going to go? You think 'Survivor benefits' right? So, you apply. First, they tell you - YES, your qualified for a few hundred dollars a month, even though you are working. {You are still not old enough to retire}. Now, you wait. Only to receive a second letter saying you get NOTHING, because your earnings are higher than the amount they had planned to give you. You basically have to QUIT your job to collect your earned 'survivor benefits'. Now, all that money that your partner put into Social Security is going to go to someone or somewhere else. It's not coming to you! Oh but wait, once you reach retirement age and start collecting your retirement, we might be able to give you a little bit of it?

Scenario #3

You have worked 35 years, paid into Social Security, paid your taxes. And now, your mental health issues have become unbearable. You are literally 'losing it', mentally. So, you decide for the safety of everyone, you are going to retire early. You will collect a small pension from the company if you were fortunate enough to work for a place that provides pensions. You apply for your Social Security that you have paid into for 35 years... and you get denied. According to them, you are not crazy enough to not be able to work. Even though, you have put everyone's safety FIRST and explained that you can't be around so many people safely anymore. Your mental illness causes violent outbursts that you no longer can control. So you end up homeless and, on the streets, because your pension wasn't enough to keep up the mortgage and you had to sell your house and now you don't have a qualifying income to pay rent either.  Hire an attorney and fight it. What does the attorney do? Nothing more than file the paperwork that you could have filed yourself. But yet he/she will get a fair chunk of your benefits if and when you do finally get approved. That is if you don't commit suicide beforehand. {Mind you, you have already attempted suicide at least 3 times}.

Bottom line. 

The only way you are going to ever see that money you paid in is -

 if you keep working until the retirement age {which is a number they keep raising} {Went from 55 to nearly 70 now}. They secretly hope you die of old age at your job before you ever get a chance to collect 'your money'. 

or if you are so sick and disabled you can't do anything except lay there and rely on nurses to feed you and wipe your ass. 

or if you are a young drug/alcoholic that has never worked a day in your life. You will qualify for SSI faster than anyone that has at least worked. 

or if you're a child who has lost your parent before you turn 18, however, once you are 18 benefits end good luck in life from then on.

of if you have a child with a disability and you don't make enough money to pay for all the extra needs. Be warned, as soon as you get a good paying job, your child's benefits will be cut off. 

BUT YET they say Social Security will be broke in a few years.

SO WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ALL OF YOUR MONEY - ask yourself? 

Social Security is the biggest government SCAM yet. They have it set up to keep denying you until you hire an attorney to do your paperwork, just so attorneys can collect a good portion of your hard earned benefits. Double SCAM going on there. 

Blessed by God

Truth be told @ the Bright Side of the Barn

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Until next time, Stay Safe and Happy Trails.