Not Your Fault

Today is my Grandson's Birthday. I haven't seen him in a year and a half. It was on my Granddaughter's birthday they came out to ride and we all had a good day. 

Less than 2 weeks later, my youngest daughter shut the door and closed me out of their lives. Everything was fine the last time we were together, she gave me no explanation as to what was 'wrong'. 

I heard later from the other kids that she 'claimed' to have her memories back. Memories that were illusions and not the true account of her childhood. She accused me of many things that never happened. Things the other kids said were unbelievable and they knew it not to be true.

I don't know what explanation she gave the Grandkids, but the next family event they wouldn't even look at me, much less talk to me. I'm hurt for me, but more so hurt for them. They love their Grama and we truly enjoyed our times together. 

I've missed Birthdays, Christmas and so many other wonderful days in between. The other kids told me not to go to their house as my daughter has threatened violence towards me. The last thing I personally heard from her was a threat to stop trying to message the kids and she wished I would die in prison? 

Nothing I've done, it's all a hallucination in her own mind. She's partnered me with people I don't even associate with and considering she was the youngest of four, it was pretty hard for me to even accomplish anything she's accused me of without the others bearing witness. 

 They have told me they don't believe her stories and know better. I was a good mom, did the best I could for the circumstances of our situations. 

It doesn't seem to matter what you do or don't do. It's not always your fault. Children grow up and walk their own path in life. Some choose to stay close to their parents and show gratitude for all the parents have done. Others choose to blame their parents, even for their own mistakes. 

I miss my Grandkids and can only pray someday my daughter finds the truth. Her mind is very confused right now. I worry about all of them. My oldest son has been lost in his own lies for years. I keep them both in my prayers. They have clouded their own mistakes and chosen to blame me for their own bad choices. 

Family doesn't mean what it used to and children don't always appreciate those that made the sacrifices to give them a good life. 

Blessed by God

Life's painful sometimes @ the Bright Side of the Barn

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Until next time, Stay Safe and Happy Trails.

Accomplished

Peace at last. 

Name changes complete, my new Notary stamp has arrived and we're back in business again. Had to pause waiting for the bond, license and stamp to all get changed over to my legal last name. 

Social security review complete and approved for my benefit change over. New income, new requirements. Still not sure what it does with the medical. That's the only thing left to get updated. 

Feels like I can breathe again. 

The holidays are approaching fast! Christmas shopping the next task to complete. Looking for gift ideas, I'm thinking Scentsy this year. Still haven't decided if we are going to decorate around here. Since moving up here my son and his family have been the only one's to make the drive.

I have a series of 6 of Washington's most popular light houses on mugs and tote bags for the light house lovers out there. Anyone looking for personalized gifts visit our custom products page for things we can make for you. I've done tree ornaments and mugs for the family a couple years ago. I have a new great grandson I need to make the ornament for my granddaughter this year.

My youngest granddaughter came up to spend the night and go riding last weekend, while we were at the barn we discovered my horse had 'cow poop' instead of horse poop. While I was there, I witnessed the neighbor throwing a bunch of apples over the fence. Hence the reason my horse had an upset tummy. It caused me to start looking for a place closer to home. Quite disturbing for me as she isn't supposed to have any apple. 

I found a place nearby to move my horse, affordable, unfortunately too much pasture for her with the Cushing's issue. I have to have more control over her diet and grass intake to keep her healthy. My friends horse continually had diarrhea before she passed, I'm guessing this was why. She had no idea what the neighbor was giving her horses. 

People shouldn't feed other people's horses without the owner's consent period. 

In the past I had a horse that was allergic to carrots. God forbid anyone would have given him one, they could have killed him. FYI too much apple can disrupt a horse's digestive system and actually cause colic. Whole apples can cause a horse to choke. A horse with Cushing's should never get apples.

Just because one horse is fine with something doesn't mean another horse will react to it the same way. Comparing a sick horse with a healthy horse is like comparing apples to oranges. My girl is 29 and in great health because I'm very protective of her. 

It's been a busy week! Stress and appointments ~ Hoping to rest and relax this weekend. Put my anxiety to rest as well. 

Blessed by God

Life's looking better @ the Bright Side of the Barn

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Until next time, Stay Safe and Happy Trails.