Prayers Get Answered

 I was pregnant with my youngest daughter when I found this poem on a plaque. Bought if from the Christian bookstore some 37 years ago. Hung onto it for years and eventually glued it to the wall of my travel trailer. Sadly, it went with my travel trailer when I sold it, along with a lot of other things I wish I still had. 

 Be careful about what you ask God for in prayer, prayers get answered, just not always how you anticipated. Sometimes it feels like the complete opposite of what you thought the answer should be. 

 It might sound crazy, but I've tried to live by this thought. Giving it to God and trusting Him with the answers. In His time not mine.

 Looking back, I can see where God has been with me throughout my life. Where He has blessed me with many blessings and miracles. So many it would take a series of books to tell of them all. Even now in all that has happened the past few years - I know He's there. Taking care of me. Sometimes, I didn't feel His presence, sometimes I felt abandon, like He walked away. But in looking back, I can see He never left my side. 

 Life is intensely stressful at the moment. I never ask 'why me' nor do I ever say 'what's next' as if a series of doom is about to fall from overhead. Some folks believe I'm cursed as if I did something horrific in a past life. Others with a better understanding of God and how He works, knows, I'm being pulled on, arms jerked and pushed around by the devil - to let go of my undying faith. 

 A faith that has kept me breathing for 60 plus years now. Depression has been a big struggle for me as well as anxiety. Some think it's a personal choice or attitude, one that I could 'change' on my own. For years I tried, only to find out from a multitude of doctors, that it's not something I control, it requires medication. Medications that I didn't have access to for years due to no medical insurance and ability to see a doctor or pay for the prescriptions. My medications are well over $2000.00 a month without insurance. Not to mention the costs of a doctor's bill. 

 I'm waiting til 8:00 am to make a phone call when the office opens, to explain a letter I received in the mail yesterday. A letter that changes my life completely and brings about a whole new set of challenges. Over and above the many daily challenges I'm trying to overcome. No sleep for 2 nights now and it's draining me. 

 I had to chuckle a bit ago. Thinking - Yep it figures. I recall praying about this very situation and asking God for help. Feeling strongly about it and wanting to be able to do the right thing. This is not quite how I anticipated the 'right thing' to be, but of course. God heard my prayer and has given me answers.

 It's just not the way I would have liked the answer to be. 

 Be careful what you ask for in prayer. God knows your heart, He knows what's right and He alone can take you from where you are to where you need to be. Trust Him. Even when it looks like the bottom is falling out and your about to enter a mountain of storms. 

Blessed by God

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