Birthday Wishes

 This will be the 3rd year in a row, I've only wanted 2 things for my birthday.  And it will probably be the 3rd year in a row, that I don't get one of them. lol

The number one reason I don't really like birthdays or Christmas, is the gifts.  Don't get me wrong ~ I always love what the kids get me, it used to be homemade when they were little, and it's become beautifully thought out things as they get older. 

I just don't like for people to spend money that they don't really have or buy something just because they feel they 'have to'.

 Cards are always appreciated; They say more and They are usually more affordable too. 

 I love it when the kids come together. Seems my birthday and Christmas are about the only time I get to see them all together. That means more to me than anything, when they come together.  After all - we all did live together for years when they were young. It helps me a lot, I don't think they realize how much. I miss my mom time. Birthdays were hard as a child, not so good with the first marriage and even worse with the second. The kids do better than they all did.

 I did enjoy seeing all the kids together for my birthday last year, the photos are something I look at often. My situation made it hard for me to enjoy being at the park or eating BBQ. Being invited somewhere with a home cooked meal would have been so much more enjoyable with my circumstances at the time. But it doesn't matter, just having them all together meant the most.

 Holidays are hard for me. Last Christmas was super hard; I can only hope this year goes better {If I'm still here}

I still don't know where I will be, haven't moved HOME yet, that would make Christmas awesome...

I love my kids to the moon and back. I hope to see them together again this year. I plan to buy myself a cake for my birthday this year. Haven't' had a real store-bought cake in a while and that was something I have always wanted and never got on my birthday growing up. Having the kids come and share it with me, would be the best. 

Blessed by God

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Insecure People

 They were getting along finally. There were no outbursts, no court orders; the kids were enjoying their visitations with their dad. The wounds were healing, time was moving forward. Until he met her... her own insecurities, jealousy and maliciousness in her own life overflowed into his. She did everything she could to come between them. Damaging their ability to parent their own children together, even though they were apart. 

 The lies, the deceptions, all the plotting one against the other. She was out to destroy his children. She did everything she could to cause them to hate him. When that didn't work she plotted to get them to hate their mother. 

 Over the years she succeeded in destroying his whole family. All because she was insecure in his relationship with his ex. She was jealous of the feelings he had for his ex, the mother of his children. Jealous of the way people looked up to their mom, spoke highly of her. She did everything she could to imitate, duplicate and be 'just like her'. 

 In the end everyone knew she was a fake imitation. So lost in herself she can't see it, won't admit it and will never apologize to those she hurt along the way. In the end she will pay the ultimate price. Hell has no fury to a woman scorn. God has seen it all and will reward those that suffered under her affliction. 

 All because of her own insecurity, jealousy and malicious ways of treating people. 

 In the end - I pity those like her. 

Blessed by God

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